I have not updated my Coaching Log in a while, for several reasons.

1) I do get really frustrated wondering if anyone actually reads my Coaching Log. I have no way to get any kind of feedback about what anyone wants to read about, which pieces they enjoy the most, if they like my Training Posts or my Coaching Posts. In November I posted my Log Entries than any other Coach (possibly more than anyone else on Team EliteFTS) and I have no idea if that was a good thing or a bad thing. In December I set out to post less, MUCH LESS, in the way of Training and more about what actually happens to me in LIFE!

2) Life isn't always FUN! If you are anything like me, TRAINING is fun. Life is just what gets me from one training session to the next. Over the last several months I have been very successful as a Father, as a Husband, as a business(es) owner, and as a Trophy Husband House Wife...BUT Training has not gone well no matter how much I've put into it. I have:
- Eaten Well
- Slept Well (even if I didn't want to)
- Trained Hard
- Trained Properly

I have also:
- Continued To Lose Weight
- Continued To Lose More Weight

People keep asking me "have you lost MORE weight"? I guess that they don't know how much I hate hearing that question and what it does to me inside. I hated people asking me that when I was 297 lbs and I REALLY hate it when I'm struggling to weigh whatever the heck that I weigh. The other night I had had a solid 10 days of force feeding and I got on the scale and I'd lost 23 more pounds. I went straight to the store (2 Liter of Coke in hand) and bought a new battery for our scale and went back home and checked again. And again.

3) The Holidays are stressful for me. Every holiday season I miss The USA because, to me, Christmas just isn't Christmas in Cyprus. Today it was well over 90 F in the sun late in the afternoon (and I was freezing cold). There are very few Christmas lights anywhere and presents aren't exchanged till New Years Day. Maybe I miss the anticipation of Christmas (my son doesn't get nearly as excited as I'd like him to). Maybe I miss my family and friends more this time of year. I really don't know. Add in the stress of a Cypriot environment (normally too many people in too small of a room talking very loudly non-stop) and my stress levels are way over the edge.

Then you combine ALL of this and I'm at a place where I'm looking at my cards and I'm pissed off about the hand that I've been dealt.

So this is the point where I decide: Will I fold or will I simply re-shuffle the cards in my hand, put on my best Poker Face, and throw down another chip.

Let us see where I'm at tomorrow.

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