We have a problem in competitive bodybuilding, a big one, and too many of us are in denial. To be fair, I was in denial until recently. Matt Porter? His situation was hereditary. Dallas McCarver? He choked on his food, or it was from insulin, or anything other than steroids. Andy Haman? He had triceps surgery—an infection or something not related to steroids. John Meadows? It couldn't have been steroids. Phil Hernon? Do steroids cause kidney problems? Mike Matarazzo? It must have been all of that red meat he ate. George Peterson? He passed away at the hotel right before the Olympia; it must have been diuretics. He hadn't used diuretics for the show yet? Well, it couldn't have been from steroids.
The thoughts above have been my thoughts. They may or may not be correct. They might be related to steroids, related to genetic issues, existing or hereditary health issues, or any other reason that you or I may know absolutely nothing about. Hell, my sister passed away in her sleep at 29-years old; she certainly didn't use steroids. The problem is that every single one of the bodybuilders I listed above has admitted to using steroids at some point in their bodybuilding careers. Whether they abused them, used them "responsibly," cycled on and off, did blood work, took precautions, I have no idea. All I know is that they used them for long periods of time, and they died long before they should have. This last sentence cannot be argued whether you believe they died from steroid use or not.
Let me be very clear on something so that those of you who are pissed off and defensive after only reading the last two paragraphs will understand: I support adults using steroids. I feel that adults should do what they want to do if it doesn't negatively impact other people. If you have the right to get drunk or smoke pot, you should have the right to use steroids. You don't have to agree with me, but it's my column, and my job is to give my opinions. I am quite sure that if you disagree, you will let me know in the comment section. My point is that I am not against the use of steroids, and I am not the type of person that would tell other people what they can and cannot do. I don't judge any of the people I listed above. In fact, I have a lot of respect for every single person that I listed. I am convinced that steroid use in bodybuilding is a huge problem that will only worsen unless something changes.
I do not believe that bodybuilding federations are responsible for controlling steroid use. It is not the responsibility of prep coaches, either. The decision should be the sole responsibility of the individual. If I don't want to die from jumping out of an airplane at 10k feet with a parachute strapped to my back, I should probably not get in a plane, climb to 10k feet, and jump out of a perfectly good airplane. However, just because I would never jump out of an airplane, I believe others should have the option. As individuals, we need to be damn sure that we are clear about the consequences, and most just don't get it.
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The following are my opinions based on being in this sport for 37 years, competing for 30 years, and using steroids for the vast majority of those years.
My life will be cut short, whether directly or indirectly, from steroid use. I denied it for years, but I have come to grips with this in the last few years. I denied it like the large majority of competitors deny it. Though testosterone use is healthy in small doses, most of us are not using the small amounts that have demonstrated positive health results.
The amount of muscle we carry is not healthy. The heart has to work harder, whether the added weight is muscle or body fat. Being muscular and lean at 220 will put more stress on your heart than being muscular and lean at 180 or 190 pounds. When bodyweight goes to 250 or even 300 pounds, the stress is even more pronounced. Many of us are arrogant, and we have ourselves convinced that we somehow offset the negatives of steroid use because we work out. I don't know how many times I have heard someone say, "I don't drink; I don't smoke; I eat very healthy; the only thing I do is use steroids." Yay for you. I did the same things, and I accept that I will die sooner than had I not used steroids as long as I have used them. Finally, I'm realistic and honest with myself.
Whether taking diuretics for competition or not, anything a competitor does to eliminate water from the body to "get harder" makes the blood more viscous. If a competitor is using steroids, his blood is almost always more viscous already. Combine the two, and I can't figure out how more competitors aren't dying than are dying now.
You don't have to agree with my opinions. You are free to do whatever you want and take whatever you want. Again, I support your right to do that. At the same time, I want to be fair by telling you that too many of us are putting our heads in the sand and denying the risks associated with steroid use. You might not be there yet, but as more people die, especially if it is someone you are close to, you will feel the impact and hopefully question what you are doing.
I know what I have done. I see the impact it will likely have. Every single night since John Meadows passed away, I put my head on my pillow, and while staring at the fan blowing in my face, I make sure to sleep on my left side with my head and shoulders as elevated as possible while still being comfortable. Why? Because you are less likely to have a heart attack sleeping on your left side. Before I go to sleep, I look straight into that damn fan and think to myself—every single night—that I might not wake up in the morning. It's a hell of a thing to be reminded of...
Every.
Single.
Night.
Just Sayin'.
Ken “Skip” Hill has been involved in the sport of bodybuilding for almost forty years and competing for twenty-plus years. Born and raised in Michigan, he spent 21 years calling Colorado home with his wife and their four children. Four years ago, he and his wife traded the mountains for the beach, relocating to South Florida. His primary focus is nutrition and supplementation, but he is called upon for his years of training experience, as well. He started doing online contest prep in 2001 and is considered one of the original contest prep guys (when the bodybuilding message boards were still in their infancy). Skip’s track record with competitive bodybuilders is well-respected, and he also does sport-specific conditioning, including professional athletes.
I also feel that the amount of gear that competitors are using has gone up. Talk to most of the guys that competed in the "golden era" and it was a minimal amount of compounds. Now, most competitors have a laundry list of things they are taking, add on that the fact many think "if I don't feel "off" then I MUST be fine" and you create a big problem.
Regardless of the reasons I think anyone that uses "gear" and thinks that it's not going to slowly chip away time from their lifespan is absolutely delusional.
Again well-written article and thank you for addressing the elephant in the room.
D.G
They also seem to be relatively new and maybe just don't play well with steroids. Just thinking about things you mentioned, specially when they are prepping and water cutting. Or do they cut those kind of things when they get close to a show?
Quite frankly you aren’t in the medical field and clearly lack knowledge of health and the health system.
Most of the patients in acute care setting aka the hospital are in there because of their own personal choices they made. Whether it be from them not taking their blood pressure pills daily (or any of their medications), to a obese patient living sedentary lifestyle and gets a myocardial infarction, to a smoker who gets lung cancer, to a patient that is diabetic and refuses to manage their blood glucose levels resulting in a amputation of an extremity…. The list can go on forever. These were all personal choices made by the patient.
What’s even worse is these patients that are non compliant with their medical regime becoming frequent flyers to the hospitals due to them not making the adjustments in their life.
Also, most of the time there is no “bed shortage” typically in the hospitals. They just don’t have enough staff from nurses to other medical employees to keep wings open because the medical system has become political.
Next time please use some common sense and do some research before saying that “Mr. hills” choice to use PeDs would negatively impact others.
It seems that young people don't realize that growing old is not a right, but a privilege. I'm 50+ and my training priorities have definitely changed. The damage you do to your body when you are young, are compounded the older you get. Getting out of bed sore is cool and a right of passage when you are 20 something. It's not when you are 45+, it's an issue. It's not cool sitting in traffic and being at work for 8+ hours with sore knees, lower back, hips, ankle, etc...
With all that said - RIP Mountain Dog. I learned so much from him these past few years and added so much to my arsenal. I miss his presence so much.
I don't know how much test will kill someone and how long they have to take it for something bad to happen. In writing this article, I am merely trying to open the topic up to be discussed. I can say that I personally feel that taking a gram of test a week for 3 months may not be all that bad, but taking it for 30 years might be. Again, I don't have the answers; I'm simply trying to get a dialogue going that I feel needs to happen.
Thank you for this fabulous article. It is beautifully written, powerfully provocative, and arresting in its raw honesty. Congratulations on your clarity on this issue and your willingness to share your understanding of the matter. I agree with your position 100 percent.
Since you wrote this piece, Shawn Rhoden has unfortunately passed on.
I wish to comment on two things.
1) I think it is absolutely tedious that people keep going to the “he had hereditary issues/ he had poor kidneys to start with/ he had a chest infection” etc etc . These assertions are preposterous. The amount of bodybuilders who seemingly start off with hereditary conditions, use alarming amounts of steroids and then die seems quite curious. If you had a preexisting medical condition, why on earth would you start taking steroids? This level of rationalisation is ridiculous.
2) I am horrified at the way the sport/industry deals with these all too frequent deaths. It is so predictable and so utterly appalling. We have a few days of trainers/ training buddies/ fellow competitors writing posts on Instagram/ Facebook/their about what a fabulous person he (or she was), how I will miss them, how I loved training with them, how they were genuine, generous and kind , how their family will miss them etc etc. Then it is all done in a week and we are back to posting endless photos of big gnarly grainy messes who are #deadsoon #needafuneralplan #myprepcoachisadumbsociopath , and on we go. The bullshit class of “classic physique” is now as big and shredded as the open classes were 15 years ago. #deadsoontoo #let’snotpretendwearesurprised.
This debacle needs to change.
Skip, more power to you for your ruthless courage and honesty. I hope you live for many decades to come.
Much respect,
Paul.
I do want to say though that I agree with Mike T.
Some contest prep coaches seem notorious in having their competitors pass away. WTAF?
This is tragic.
While I agree that individual persons are responsible for their own health, it is also about context. A desperately ambitious competitor, who is emotionally vulnerable and no genius intellectually combined with a sociopathic contest prep coach who is not a medical practitioner nor a Ph.D. in biochemistry is a disaster waiting to happen. The fact that an ape has “read the literature” doesn’t mean that he has understood it. Again, this debacle has to stop. Paul.
To your points: I wonder if the people in our industry don't see all of the death as some kind of bizarre "badge of courage." Do we accept that what we do is eventually going to kill us and we are kind of proud of it? Just one more thing we are willing to do that normal people aren't willing to do?
Appreciate your article and couldn't agree more. I grew up when Pro hormones were legal, and no one knew at the time the damage it had probably wreaked on our hearts and other organs. It was for years 4 weeks on, 4-8 weeks off then repeat. Now that I'm older, I was forced to go on HRT due to my natural levels basically being shut off. I don't up the dose but maybe once a year for 10 weeks but that may soon change as well.
Would you ever consider writing an article on what you think the average user should do as far as tests to have performed to possibly stay ahead of the damage as much as possible? For instance blood work is a no brainer, but also donating blood every 3-4 months?, baby aspirin every night?, possibly seeing a cardiologist in hopes they can do some simple tests to get a look the size of the aorta/plaque build-up?
I think a lot of people would be interested in reading what you would have a family member do that are in our shoes, because the very real possibility of our lives ending 20+years shorter than expected is setting in.
Been a fan for years and I rarely comment. Just thought I'd mention, you need to be sleeping on your right side.
You actually breathe better and take in more oxygen during sleep. Sleeping on your left side can inhibit various things such as blood flow to the heart, oxygen deprivation, etc. Remember, the main artery vein to your heart is on the left side of your body and runs down the left arm (this is why we wear wedding rings on the left hand, I'm divorced so not anymore but hey!).
*Also, my favorite response guys say after someone semi-famous in the fitness/BBer/PL world dies from excessive drug use ALWAYS is, "Well, he knew the risks."
Best Regards,
Brian K
I'm no medical professional, so this could be wrong. I am beginning to wonder if the sleep position has little to nothing to do with whether I'm going to die in my sleep. :)