Not that I have ever been bit by a shark but imagine the sharpe sting of the teeth ripping at your skin, tearing holes in your bones and stretching your tendons and muscles so far they rip off your bones.
That is the type of pain I have been experiencing over the past week. Everyone said oh shoulder surgeries are the worst, not good blah blah blah. So I did my research and thought I got this, I mean it can't be worse than my back surgery, no way, I am strong, this too will be a piece of cake.
Wrong again, soon the hours of pain turned into days of pain, I tried everything to try and get a hold on it but nothing seemed to help. I have been basically drugging myself up so much just to try and sleep it off. For the past 6 days I have secluded myself from the world hoping it would get better.
Ice packs, sling, tens machine, oxycodone, tylenol, sleeping pills, Tramadol, pillows, sleeping sitting up, nothing has helped, or has it ?
Maybe this is as comfortable as it gets, maybe I'm a big cry baby but I have a huge pain tolerance, or maybe It's just part of the healing process.
Either or all of the above doesn't change the fact that it hurts like hell but I'm at least up today typing this log, which takes 10 times longer with one hand.
So in preparation for my surgery I was focussed on all the wrong things, my hair, my makeup, cooking, cleaning, wiping my ass when in all reality none of those things even mattered over the past week.
What really matters is healing, allowing my body to follow the course it must take no matter how long the journey is. Pain sucks, Injuries suck but at the end of the day I am better than I was yesterday.
The hardest part for me is being dependant on others, I hate being a burden and am trying not to be too needy, thank you Ken for taking good care of me !
Tomorrow will be better, I go see my Surgeon on the 20th and will hopefully get some answers then, until then, rest, recover and let my shoulder heal like its supposed too !
#teamelitfts #driven #strongher
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